Les's Poetry

What have we done to our children's futures?
We have taught them that there is no real solutions, we live in a world so fucking jaded by hate, that only 75 percent will continue to graduate. We lock our kids up for fear of them going outside, we give them a TV and behind a computer is where they hide.

We don't do it for anyone else but ourselves anymore, as our jaded daughter is slowly becoming a known whore. She is bedded by the son of a priest that lives next door, he has exploited her touch for love and it is with her body he wants more. True love is now just a fantasy we hope to achieve, but it won't happen with half our population addicted to meth-amphetamines.

The new dating way is to sign online and say "Hey Baby how was your day"? Not making eye contact, instead you send a quick Pm that says "fine" how about your day? We will expect our children to do better then us? Sure they got it "easy" we say in a fuss. Not knowing that we are crippling our own nation, when there is such violence and hatred on every news station.

We teach our children to fear the unknown, god forbid we study it, that takes time, and in a world like this our time has to be mine. So, we make our children dumb to the fact that not everyone is like them and normal is not a fact. We as a nation scream ACCEPTANCE that is the cure, but what are we doing, is it really pure? Or is to be recognized by a social media type?

If so does this make us wrong or right?We live in a world that it is normal to die, we teach our kids their to tough to cry! So, we turn away when it is that lil girl and boy suffering from that disease, we say we could always have it worse couldn't we?

All of this must come to an end, we must not carry on like this my friends! Sadly though, it will take more then two or three hundred to change you see, we have created a new app online called "Social Society"..

Nicholas Hilyard

:O i loves!

Who am I to you? Am I someone who you know to be true?
Do I walk through life just like your friends and you?
When I cut, do I cut a deep as you!
Seeing me cry does it hurt as much to you?

Am I someone that you would date for fun?
Or am I something to have a future with, or just another poker run?
You say you understand me, question is do you get who I really am?
Or am I just someone that your used to so you have to let me in?

Can you see past my quirks, and not listen to the jerks?
As most laugh at me, or smile at me with their smirks?
Will you really be there until the END? As most know your just a friend!
Put my mind at ease when I am sad, not calling me a hater when I am MAD?
Is it easier to speak to me or ignore me with bliss?

Is it just me or did I lose you with our first KISS?


9/2/2014
Nicholas Hilyard

9/3/14

Auto Pilot Autism Correction

Do you ever realize why it is, tears that hide behind my eyes?
Have you ever came to the conclusion, that there is no solution?

Often wondering if you are supposed to be in some different "reality"
Scared to death of what might just come out from the deep inside.

Trying to fucking scream no words are coming out. When deeply in a dream.

I'm yelling so loud I can't fucking say a word cause my thoughts are so deep in.

Pick yourself up off this metal floor, your in my feelings, way to close to my bubble.

Just get out of my face, I don't understand, There's about to be some trouble. You will become my disgrace.

Get into my world and see what I have become, knowing it is NOT me that is number one.

At the end of the day this is how you feel, you say? When it is you who can't be bothered to pray?
Don"t judge me dude, you got no clue of what/when/where i'm coming from no fucking clue and I gotta SAY screw you.
Stop looking at me. No judgment here
   GO     Away.. no wait please just stay..

Nicholas Hilyard

:O i loves again!!

Look at it this way I don't see who you really are.
You hide behind technology and pretend to fight for something better.
Yet you yourself know you can't change a damn thing not even the weather
But, you claim to have love for someone who gives you "simple" pleasure.
Too kiss their lips is like taking a tablet of morphine.
Who the fuck am I you ask? Why is you that my spell was cast? You knew Nick.
You knew we wouldn't last, but you continue to fight and I gotta scream WHY!
Let me go, let god, start a new beginning I beg of you please don't cry..
You act as if it were not for me you WOULD die!
Yes you became my everything, my obsession is you, where did you get the clue?
Was it the carving of your name in my chest, or my arm when did you start to notice?
It couldn't have been the simple kisses and all the I love you's!
You say let go but it is me who you run to when you need me like "come to me"
You scream be your friend as you lay down to cuddle with me, next day to end my fantasy..
Don;t get it twisted your really nothing that special to many people, but you became my norm.
If we were playing a "clue" game I would say your pretty fucking warm.
Now let go of me stop clinging to my strong arm. Go leave me BE.
As my conscious screams I just needed you with me...

9/30/2014
Nicholas

girl issues?

Alot of people would say that.. I am into writing dark poetry even if im not feeling that certain way I know someone is. So, I write for everyone

Yourself and Hatred

I look into the eyes of a man who has been through it.
Was I ever accepted in this world?
My mind spins with anger I look at the man in the mirror and my mind begins to twirl.
I see the rage that could cut someones skin.
I see that man in the mirror his fear has turned into a mere smirk.
He knew who he was it was everyone else who underestimated him.
Do you know who your inner enemy is?
Look at yourself and what you have become.
Your a hateful person, where did your heart run to?
You used to care it was everyone else that mattered?
Now look at the monster your trust created, I'm screaming as I'm hated.
yes you come here, im soaked in blood and covered with a life thats been wasted.
All, I can do is be a sinner im only human right (oh wait shit)
That fucking monster is back and he will not quit.
That man in the mirror is You and that shit's legit.
Throw your anger away? nah it's to hard.
My memories are still in my dreams and that makes me crazy.
I'll get that payback oh yes I will One day...

Nicholas Hilyard